I don’t know if anyone still comes here to read this blog or
not. I’ve pretty much let it go and
simply post a link or picture or something from time to time. This has been my longest absence so far from
posting anything very relevant. But, God
has been working on me for more than a year now, had me out in the woodshed a
good lot of that time actually, so I hope to record here some of the fruit that
has come out of that, from having received the rod of the Lords correction, so-to-speak. I’ve had
a pretty big adjustment to my previous way of thinking and things that used to
matter a great deal to me have grown much more dim, becoming but dust and ashes
in my sight.
Over the years since we’ve lived here in northern
Wisconsin I’ve had a certain level of anxiety after having picked up and moved
my family to a way of life previously not experienced by any of us. (On a side note; God delivered me
this year from that anxiety) I had no
idea what I was going to do to make a living up here. Oh, I had thoughts on what I wanted to do,
but what you want to do and what makes enough money are often times two different
issues altogether and money has always been an issue.
So after having leaped into so many new things (for us) from
raising crops and animals to becoming entrepreneurs by necessity I have many,
many times felt totally incompetent and inept, so I have often prayed to God
for more wisdom. And nearly every time
I prayed that prayer I’d remember God’s word “The fear of the Lord is the
beginning of wisdom…” Psalm 111:10 and Proverbs 9:10. But, that theme, especially for the better
part of this year, has really been hitting home with me. The fear of the Lord IS the beginning of
wisdom, it truly is. Have you ever had
those kinds of lessons where if you didn’t know better you’d think there was
some kind of conspiracy out there to give you a certain message? It’s like every sermon you hear hits on that
theme, every article or book you read hits on that theme, everywhere you go it
seems the theme, whatever it might be, jumps right out at you. For me this year it’s been “the fear of the
Lord”.
I’m in the process again, for the third time in my life, of
reading the entire bible all the way through.
Actually I do things backwards a lot of times and I started with the New
Testament and first read it all from Matthew to Revelation. Now I’m in the process of reading through the
Old Testament, I’m currently in the book of Numbers. But, again all through it I’m seeing the call
to “fear the Lord”. It’s there woven all
throughout the bible. Not necessarily a
fall on your face trembling as if you are going to die fear, which it can be
that of course, but a high and holy reverence, a holy fear, a healthy
respect.
All throughout the bible both Old
Testament and New we are told to “fear the Lord”.
In Jeremiah 32:40 God even says
that He will put the fear of Himself into His people so that they will not turn
away from Him. “And I will make an
everlasting covenant with them, that I will not turn away from them, to do them
good; but I will put my fear in their
hearts, that they shall not depart from me. “
“The fear of the LORD
is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good
understanding. To him belongs eternal praise.” Psalms 111:10
“The fear of the LORD
is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.” Proverbs 9:10
And Jesus said “And fear not them which kill the body, but
are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear
him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell. “ Matthew 10:28
“Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us
cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting
holiness in the fear of God.” 2
Corinthians 7:1
“Wherefore we receiving a kingdom which cannot be moved, let
us have grace, whereby we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear.” Hebrews 12:28
“Saying with a loud voice, Fear God, and give glory to him; for the hour of his judgment is
come: and worship him that made heaven, and earth, and the sea, and the
fountains of waters.” Revelation 14:7
“And a voice came out of the throne, saying, Praise our God,
all ye his servants, and ye that fear
him, both small and great.” Revelation 19:5
If you are looking for it this command to “fear God” can be
found all throughout the bible from beginning to end.
And to further burn this theme into my heart soul and mind I
had a terrible dream back around spring of this year. I had a very real dream in that I had obviously
died but, had gone to a hell like place instead of heaven. I won’t go into detail here but, the main
thing that I was extremely aware of was that it was “eternal”, a place of utter
hopelessness and despair with no hope ever for any kind of pardon or parole,
forever and ever and ever. In that place
the name of Jesus held no power or hope, it did absolutely no good to call out
His name and it was terrifying and eternal.
Forever is a very, very long time.
After I woke from this horrible dream I had a hard time shaking it. Kelli sat with me for hours that night as I
related the horrors of that bad dream.
As we talked I was highly aware of the lost condition of so many people
around me, family, friends, neighbors and people in the community.
As Kelli and I sat up that night I kept getting pictures in
my mind about the lost condition of the whole world. One picture I told her, “It’s like everyone
in the world is seated on a speeding train on tracks that are on a downhill run
which end abruptly at the edge of a very steep cliff. The train is barreling toward certain
destruction, but most of the people inside are fast asleep and dreaming. A man is dreaming about a ball game,
a lady is dreaming of a nice little tea party, they’re all dreaming about their
hobbies and pleasures of life fast asleep completely unaware that certain
destruction is just moments down the track as the train hurtles along faster
and faster. The only way to be saved from certain death is
from a life line that’s being lowered down from an invisible hand. The life line represents Jesus. All that the people have to do is wake up and
take ahold of the line and they will be lifted to safety. Some do and firmly grasp the life line/Jesus
and are whisked up and away, off of the hurtling train, but most prefer to stay
sleeping, all warm and snug deep in dream land, having no inclination what so
ever that certain doom is coming their way, which is approaching closer and closer and closer
by the second." That dream affected me
profoundly.
Many people do not believe in heaven or hell. Others
believe only in heaven and not hell, with hell being just too horrible of a reality
to contemplate. But Jesus himself warned
about it plenty, even saying that it would be better to pluck out an eye or chop
off a hand than for the whole body to be thrown into the eternal torment of
hell. If there wasn’t a hell why would
Jesus even have had to die for our sins in the first place? To reiterate what Jesus said, “…but rather fear him which is able to destroy both
soul and body in hell. “ Matthew 10:28
The Word teaches that it is indeed
real without a doubt.
In light of these things it’s helping me to see more clearly
at least one of the reasons why America is disintegrating into such a sad moral
abyss. People don’t fear God anymore,
simple as that. You can’t fear what you
don’t believe in, which is one thing that the public school system has done a
fine job in accomplishing in America’s youth.
“We came from apes” they say. “There
is no God”, they say. And now we have things
like “black Friday” where people act exactly like the animals they believe they
are.
But even in the modern church it seems most people don’t
have a reverence for God anymore and have very little fear or respect. “God is love” that is written plainly in the
scriptures, but he is also a “consuming fire” and that second part is so often
overlooked in modern American churches today where Jesus it seems is everyone’s
“buddy”.
I was born in 1963 and grew up with that kind of “lukewarm”
perspective of the Lord. I knew Christian
kids that would willingly and knowingly sin then say “now let’s ask Jesus to
forgive us”, not much fear of God in that kind of thinking. For lack of a holy reverential fear of the
Lord I did many things I’m not proud of as a “Christian” kid growing up.
The modern American church should tremble at the abominations
being committed by so called professed “Christians” today. It was bad enough when I was young, it’s only
gotten exponentially worse since then. Very
few of us have an understanding of what it is to have a holy reverential fear of
Almighty God. Today it seems there is
very little difference between Christians and the World. This is one of the main problems of why we
have people willing to maim or kill just to save a few bucks on some new electronic
gadget, what a shame!
We recently had to endure the song and dance of the latest
presidential election here in America. I
for one didn’t get very worked up about it because I understand that this
country is too far gone to put any hope in any of the political parties. Salvation will not come from the government
and it never has. In my view, we don’t
have a top down problem anymore; it’s a bottom up problem. Americans have become so far removed in their
consciousness of God that we don’t deserve Godly leaders. In this country we’ve forgotten God!
We have to ask ourselves, what’s at the forefront of our
minds. What do we think about all the time,
making money, our jobs, the latest scores at the ball game, going fishing, hunting? How about the latest and greatest brand new electronic
gadget that people are willing to maim and kill for?
But things are getting tight here in America; people might
have to give up that second or third vehicle, that second or third house even. We have customers that are now having to give
up their second homes because they can’t afford to keep two anymore. I’m not against prosperity by the way, not at
all, I’m just making a point of all the myriad of things that take precedence
over God. All these things take preeminence
in our heart, soul and mind and a relationship with God is relegated to
someplace WAY down the ladder.
It’s true that criminal elements have taken over our governmental
institutions, many years ago, but they are waxing worse and worse just as the
rest of society. In this country the salt has lost its savor,
the Christians have fallen asleep and have become lukewarm. This is the reason in my opinion for the downfall
of America.
It’s easy to point the finger at everyone else, but it
really has to start with us. We need
revival, but it has to start with the one we see in the mirror. We
need personal revival before we will ever see it in our communities much less our governments. We need to
individually fall on our faces before a Holy God and repent of our sins, of
which are piling up to heaven. We’ve
forgotten God because we are fast asleep with everything but the Lord at the
forefront of our imaginations. The salt
has lost its savor.
The American church needs
to wake up before it’s too late; maybe it’s already too late. But God is long suffering. He is patient not willing that any should
perish. But at some point the door on the Ark got shut
and only the ones safe inside survived the coming flood. A “flood” is coming and we need to be in the
Ark which is Jesus. But we have to wake
out of our stupor in order to get safely inside. We’ll never find it while we live out our
days sleep walking like some kind of “zombies”.
Not one thing in this world is more important than ours and our loved
ones eternal souls. Forever is a very long time.
I was pleased to see that you posted here. I appreciate your comments and agree.
I too have gone through a time of God's humbling. Though it was not recent, it was a difficult time that I remember well, and it was a turning point in my life. A very healthy fear of the Lord was the clear message that I took away from the experience. That and the fact that He is almighty, holy, and sovereign, while I am not. I also came to better understand God's work of grace and mercy in my life.
Truly, the fear of the Lord is beginning of wisdom, and it is the foundation of a life lived for His glory.
I'm sure God is waking His people up. Most Christians I talk to who are serious about their walk with Him are feeling the same stirring. It's time. Many Christians that I thought were half asleep are being stirred now, too.
For me, it's been an awareness of His Kingdom. Matthew 24:14 - "And this gospel of the Kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come." and especially Matt.6:33, "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness... " There's only ONE first. I hear it and see it in every book of the Bible and He shows it to me in so many things.
He's been showing me that nothing matters, nothing is serious or important, except for His plan. All the things that used to occupied my mind and so much of my time, and the things I used to value are suddenly unimportant. Serving Him, being ready in season and out of season and learning to trust Him and be fearless in these dark times is all that matters. We have to be strong for all those who won't know how to be strong, and we have to be able to show them the Way.
It's an urgency, isn't it?
Keep blogging. :) Good to see you. Be blessed! Rhenda
Yes, there are people reading your blog. The Lord led me on Sunday afternoon right to your post. It was where He wanted me to be and what He wanted me to read. Thank you for your transparency. My husband and I do believe that the Lord is working in hearts all across the country....and we MUST begin with repentance and the Fear of the Lord....we are listening too. Please continue to share..... Vi in Kentucky
For some reason, I ran across your site. It was as if I was reading my own story. Thank you for posting this. The last year has been trying for me spiritually. The lord has shown me too that there are so many people around me that are not ready and that I need to do something about my own turning away. I struggled with many things, my own iniquities. I need to get back to God. And tirelessly pray for those who are on the wrong track. Now when I wake up in the night, God is still talking to me. He has not given up on me yet. He said in his word that he would pour out his spirit upon "all flesh" in the last days. I think God is calling those of us who are in this same boat to lead others to him before it is too late. Thank you for this posting. I was happy to see I wasn't the only one to feel this way.
Hi Russ, I haven't read blogs for a very long time, but tonight felt it was time to check out a few to see who was still blogging. I'm very thankful to read your latest post. Recently we watched Ray Comfort's newest video called "Genius" http://geniusthemovie.com/), and it really shook me, watching how depraved we are. Not only others, but I have the very same capabilities, except that the Lord has extended grace to me and forgiven me of my sins. It sure does seem like people are being stirred all over the world to seek the Lord for what we should be doing. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts.
Just stumbling through a couple blogs, I haven't even visited mine for a while. Oh, we are on the same track, in fact God is calling many with the same message.
The last month I've been away from the computer pretty much as my dad is dying. Every day now at the VA in St Cloud. Had him home till we couldn't manage the pain. But in God's glorious ways, he got truly saved during his last moments of clarity. This experience is grinding me down hard, refining my ways, more than I ever thought possible. I come across more and more local Christians that are hearing from God, that we should be a holy people, not status quo church goers.
I appreciate your post Russ, a confirmation of what God is telling us in this house.
Looks like I'm getting a little behind on responding to your comments. So I'll start from the most recent. ----------------------------- Hi Tom, Good to hear from you my friend. I'm afraid I haven't been very good at keeping in touch a good part of this year that's now almost over.
I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but I'm glad he's found the Lord. If I remember right from your blog he was not well a number of years ago so he was in my prayers back then also. Watching a loved one pass is always a hard thing to adjust to but by God's grace we make it through, as we will all pass that way as well, sooner or later.
We had a funeral to attend recently, a cousin of Kelli's, he was an excellent preacher. In fact he spoke at my mother in-laws funeral back in 2010 and now here he has gone on himself, her and him both singing in glory no doubt. You and your family are in my prayers. ------------------------------ Hi Lynn, Thank you for the comment and the link to "Genius" http://geniusthemovie.com/. It was very similar to one he did called “180”. In fact he used a lot of the same interviews. I admire Ray Comfort and how he uses logic to show people their need of a savior. However it is scary the depths to which our culture has sunk. Our society has forgotten God and this is a perfect example of what comes from that, hearts that are cold and hard. And now we have the shootings out in Connecticut. This is the fruit of a Godless society. And now law abiding folks are the ones to pay the price with this concerted effort to try and take away guns. Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas ---------------------------- Anonymous, Thank you for the comment. Praise the Lord that as long as we still have breath by His patience and grace we can still repent and turn things around and hopefully bring others along with us. It reminds me of Daniel 12:3 “And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament; and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever”. Anyone who leads others into righteousness receives an eternal reward. However love for others should be the primary motivating factor. --------------------------- Vi, Thank you for the comment and the encouragement. Merry Christmas and may the lord bless you greatly in the coming New Year
Thank you much for your words. I am much the same age and have the same background as you. Unlike you I thought that America might have been spared during this last election. In all things I have to remember that God is in control. I will be thinking of this post for quite a while
My wife and I raised our three children on our 120 acre homestead in Northern Wisconsin since 1998. We hope to share with you on this blog some of our experiences these past years.
11 Comments:
Russ,
I was pleased to see that you posted here. I appreciate your comments and agree.
I too have gone through a time of God's humbling. Though it was not recent, it was a difficult time that I remember well, and it was a turning point in my life. A very healthy fear of the Lord was the clear message that I took away from the experience. That and the fact that He is almighty, holy, and sovereign, while I am not. I also came to better understand God's work of grace and mercy in my life.
Truly, the fear of the Lord is beginning of wisdom, and it is the foundation of a life lived for His glory.
H. Kimball
Hi Herrick,
Thanks for the comment, I appreciate your words.
Russ
Yes, I'm still reading when you post. :)
I'm sure God is waking His people up. Most Christians I talk to who are serious about their walk with Him are feeling the same stirring. It's time. Many Christians that I thought were half asleep are being stirred now, too.
For me, it's been an awareness of His Kingdom. Matthew 24:14 - "And this gospel of the Kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come." and especially Matt.6:33, "Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness... " There's only ONE first. I hear it and see it in every book of the Bible and He shows it to me in so many things.
He's been showing me that nothing matters, nothing is serious or important, except for His plan. All the things that used to occupied my mind and so much of my time, and the things I used to value are suddenly unimportant. Serving Him, being ready in season and out of season and learning to trust Him and be fearless in these dark times is all that matters. We have to be strong for all those who won't know how to be strong, and we have to be able to show them the Way.
It's an urgency, isn't it?
Keep blogging. :) Good to see you.
Be blessed!
Rhenda
Hi Rhenda,
Thanks for sharing your insights and what the Lord has been showing you.
Yes I agree that there is an "urgency". I think because the hour is getting so late.
I for one long to see the Lord as He is and enter into his Kingdom more than ever in my life.
Gods blessings to you,
Russ
Yes, there are people reading your blog. The Lord led me on Sunday afternoon right to your post. It was where He wanted me to be and what He wanted me to read. Thank you for your transparency. My husband and I do believe that the Lord is working in hearts all across the country....and we MUST begin with repentance and the Fear of the Lord....we are listening too. Please continue to share.....
Vi in Kentucky
For some reason, I ran across your site. It was as if I was reading my own story. Thank you for posting this. The last year has been trying for me spiritually. The lord has shown me too that there are so many people around me that are not ready and that I need to do something about my own turning away. I struggled with many things, my own iniquities. I need to get back to God. And tirelessly pray for those who are on the wrong track. Now when I wake up in the night, God is still talking to me. He has not given up on me yet. He said in his word that he would pour out his spirit upon "all flesh" in the last days. I think God is calling those of us who are in this same boat to lead others to him before it is too late. Thank you for this posting. I was happy to see I wasn't the only one to feel this way.
Hi Russ, I haven't read blogs for a very long time, but tonight felt it was time to check out a few to see who was still blogging. I'm very thankful to read your latest post. Recently we watched Ray Comfort's newest video called "Genius" http://geniusthemovie.com/), and it really shook me, watching how depraved we are. Not only others, but I have the very same capabilities, except that the Lord has extended grace to me and forgiven me of my sins. It sure does seem like people are being stirred all over the world to seek the Lord for what we should be doing. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts.
Just stumbling through a couple blogs, I haven't even visited mine for a while. Oh, we are on the same track, in fact God is calling many with the same message.
The last month I've been away from the computer pretty much as my dad is dying. Every day now at the VA in St Cloud. Had him home till we couldn't manage the pain. But in God's glorious ways, he got truly saved during his last moments of clarity. This experience is grinding me down hard, refining my ways, more than I ever thought possible. I come across more and more local Christians that are hearing from God, that we should be a holy people, not status quo church goers.
I appreciate your post Russ, a confirmation of what God is telling us in this house.
Looks like I'm getting a little behind on responding to your comments. So I'll start from the most recent.
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Hi Tom,
Good to hear from you my friend. I'm afraid I haven't been very good at keeping in touch a good part of this year that's now almost over.
I'm sorry to hear about your dad, but I'm glad he's found the Lord. If I remember right from your blog he was not well a number of years ago so he was in my prayers back then also. Watching a loved one pass is always a hard thing to adjust to but by God's grace we make it through, as we will all pass that way as well, sooner or later.
We had a funeral to attend recently, a cousin of Kelli's, he was an excellent preacher. In fact he spoke at my mother in-laws funeral back in 2010 and now here he has gone on himself, her and him both singing in glory no doubt.
You and your family are in my prayers.
------------------------------
Hi Lynn,
Thank you for the comment and the link to "Genius" http://geniusthemovie.com/. It was very similar to one he did called “180”. In fact he used a lot of the same interviews. I admire Ray Comfort and how he uses logic to show people their need of a savior. However it is scary the depths to which our culture has sunk. Our society has forgotten God and this is a perfect example of what comes from that, hearts that are cold and hard. And now we have the shootings out in Connecticut. This is the fruit of a Godless society. And now law abiding folks are the ones to pay the price with this concerted effort to try and take away guns.
Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas
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Anonymous,
Thank you for the comment. Praise the Lord that as long as we still have breath by His patience and grace we can still repent and turn things around and hopefully bring others along with us. It reminds me of Daniel 12:3 “And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament; and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever”. Anyone who leads others into righteousness receives an eternal reward. However love for others should be the primary motivating factor.
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Vi,
Thank you for the comment and the encouragement.
Merry Christmas and may the lord bless you greatly in the coming New Year
Merry Christmas to you and your family. I like reading your blog!
Thank you much for your words. I am much the same age and have the same background as you. Unlike you I thought that America might have been spared during this last election. In all things I have to remember that God is in control. I will be thinking of this post for quite a while
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